"Tarnish" lyrics

I'll ride on through the sweat and tears
For all the years fought through the fear
I promise I ain't nothin' like you think
There's plenty folks who warned me
Said I should tread lightly
But I've put myself right through those flames
I'm a workin' man, tryna pay my dues
But it's no use 'cause I'm barely scrapin' by

I've lost some good souls, the heartbreak, tarnish and suicide
There's a part of me that's dyin' on the inside

I've been locked up, chained up, goin' nowhere fast
Pedal to the gas, darlin', I'm a fuckin' mess
I've been beat up, torn up, lost and so confused
Chokin' for air, darlin', I'm a swingin' noose

Got a feelin' that I cannot shake
I've been starin' at the barrel for the past few days
There's a lot to say and lots to blame
I'm losin' grip on who I am
I wish that you would understand

I've been locked up, chained up, goin' nowhere fast
Pedal to the gas, darlin', I'm a fuckin' mess
I've been beat up, torn up, lost and so confused
Chokin' for air, darlin', I'm a swingin' noose