"Paralyzed" lyrics

I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed
I'm paranoid but I survive
Hear them talk behind my back
Knowing that I'm not scared to die
'Cause even things still built to last
Will never pass the test of time

I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed
I'm paranoid but I survive
Had to get it out the mud
Can't let it bury me alive
'Cause all the things I did for love
That I soon forgot I tried

I sacrificed, I paid the price
They told me it's kill or be killed
They said only God can judge me
But I know that you still will
I'm not running from my past
I'm not running from myself
Used to hate being alive
But now I live to keep what's built

I got the call, I still remember when I heard my mother cry
All that pain inside her voice, I couldn't even wipe her eyes
Still at night I can't avoid thinking that maybe she is right
Maybe things won't be the same but I stand tall 'cause I know why

I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed
I'm paranoid but I survive
Hear them talk behind my back
Knowing that I'm not scared to die
'Cause even things still built to last
Will never pass the test of time

I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed
I'm paranoid but I survive
Hear them talk behind my back
Knowing that I'm not scared to die
'Cause even things still built to last
Will never pass the test of time