"A Different Kind Of Happiness" lyrics

The buzzing of my telephone
To my surprise, I know the call
The cadence of my future self
He didn't sound all that well
He didn't sound that well

But if I could see it through a softer lens
It wouldn't mean that it hurt any less
It's not what I hoped for, I don't wanna pretend
But maybe I'll find, maybe I'll find
A different kind of happiness

And all the Earth crashed into one
Said all the things you're runnin' from
All the rage and the regret
Well, I ain't outrun 'em yet
No, I ain't outrun 'em yet

But if I could see it through a softer lens
It wouldn't mean that it hurt any less
It's not what I hoped for, I don't wanna pretend
But maybe I'll find, maybe I'll find
A different kind of happiness

Then a call from me as a boy
Reality was all but gone
He said, "Life, it keeps replacing joy
And I don't know where I belong"
He was lost in an alien sadness
Don't remember where it came from
He said, "I am full up of an otherness"
He hung up before I could pass on

But if I could see it through a softer lens
It wouldn't mean that it hurt any less
It's not what I hoped for, I don't wanna pretend
But maybe I'll find, maybe I'll find
A different kind of happiness