"pretend" lyrics

I can be a burden, baby, I can be a psycho
They call me a mistake and roll me off like a typo
And life just keeps on hitting me, I swear that I'mma fight though
So hit me with your best shot, staring down the rifle
I been looking back, riding on my motorcycle
I remember nights when I was feeling suicidal
I was falling out, boy, dead on arrival
Couldn't see the signs, I was living in denial

I'm on the edge
You're in my head

Tell me you need me
Even when you don't
I don't know when this will end
Tell me you'll stay now
Even if you won't
Baby, we can play pretend, yeah

I guess that what I'm saying is
I'm scared of going back
I remember every struggle, every panic attack
You saw the life inside my eyes fade away over time
I couldn't pick up a guitar
I couldn't think of a rhyme
I needed something to believe in
Somewhere that I could hide
They told me I should start pretending
Always kept it inside
And I was hoping these emotions were a lack of serotonin
Never thought that my own brain could ever turn to an opponent

Tell me you need me
Even when you don't
I don't know when this will end
Tell me you'll stay now
Even if you won't
Baby, we can play pretend

Are you okay, tell me, are you okay?
Nothing to say now, waiting for the breakdown
Are you okay, tell me, are you okay?

Tell me you need me
Even if you don't
I don't know when this will end
Tell me you'll stay now
Even if you won't
Baby, we can play pretend

Are you okay, tell me, are you okay?
Nothing to say now, waiting for the breakdown
Are you okay, tell me, are you okay?
Baby, we can play pretend