"A Tangled Mess" lyrics

Where's the optimist in me?
And did I lose myself to constant negativity?

I say it's cool
I say it's fine
But the truth is
There's darkness
Always on my mind
A tangled mess gets worse with time

Now all I see is gray
And every cloud turns to a storm inside my brain

I say it's cool
I say it's fine
But the truth is
There's something
Always on my mind
I'm a tangled mess who's out of time

Yeah, I'm thinking of having a little [?]

Is there any good in me?
I'm still searching
(Why am I searching?)
I can't find anything
'Cause nothing's cool, nothing's fine
(Nothing's cool, nothing's fine)
I'm sick of always being stuck
In my troubled mind