"My Spirit Animal Is..." lyrics

I pretend that being okay is hiding your problems in a bed
Where I get no sleep
I'm mirroring the bad things that became a part of who I am
And I was stagnant long before I stopped feeling a thing
So I let go
I stopped looking for hope in the cracks
On the wall where I told the world goodbye

I'm pushing off
Into the distance in the fog where I hoped the waves would crash
And tear me apart like you did
So I sank, I could never swim and it shows in the depths
Where I've been alone
Because depression got a hold
And it doesn't let go
Without taking what you love most
It's my head and the thoughts I can't control
Hating myself has become my home

I got lost somewhere along the way
But I don't want to be found
Just let me dig my own grave