"Ashamed" lyrics

This one here is ... it's meaningful
I don't know why
I just heard it and I felt like
Soon as I heard it
I got to say something
That means something
So check this

Fuck a self-defense
I'm upping it
I'm keeping this bitch
Some people left me
In the dirt
Now look how clean I get
Mame, I miss you
Great-grandmo will really
Whoop with a switch
Welps on my ass
And scars on my waist
From gripping a stick

Lately
I been thinking
That I'm kind of crazy
I been lonely
I just want my baby
Praying everyday that God
Save me
I'm not ashamed of the thug life
No no no
I'm not ashamed of this thug life
(Uhh uhh)

Fuck ya
Judge me if you want
But I'ma thug till the end
My heart is broken
I done lost my friends
I let my guard down
Now fucked I'm crossed again
Make sure that
I shit on all of the pussy many men
Life goes on
And I done been done so wrong
Stacking this paper
Told my mama hold on
I got to get it
I don't want to go home
Look
I say some situations
Can't fix them
Most of them
Can't even see me
They painting my picture
Ain't gotta worry
Karma real
You getting your issue
Puff on the doe doe
With a clip
Full of missiles

Lately
I been thinking
That I'm kind of crazy
I been lonely
I just want my baby
Praying everyday that God
Save me
I'm not ashamed of the thug life
No no no
I'm not ashamed of this thug life
(Uhh uhh)

Fuck a self-defense
I'm upping it
I'm keeping this bitch
Some people left me
In the dirt
Now look how clean I get
Mame, I miss you
Great-grandmo will really
Whoop with a switch
Welps on my ass
And scars on my waist
From gripping a stick

Lately
I been thinking
That I'm kind of crazy
I been lonely
I just want my baby
Praying everyday that God
Save me
I'm not ashamed of the thug life
No no no
I'm not ashamed of this thug life
(Uhh uhh)