"Unwanted" lyrics

I've been sick. I've been heart-broke. I've been lost. I've been dead
I've been so many things that I never want to say

Intentions falling to the ground from your petulance
I can't think straight anymore
Your rejection leaves me paralyzed
How long can I keep doing this for?

A new frame of mind is all I want back

I wanna fall in love and I wanna fall in love with you
You're everything I've wanted
That's it. I'm sick of it all. I can't keep my mouth shut anymore
I'm not your pawn. I'll break your vice. I won't idolize the unwanting

Lead me on. You're all take without any give. Get out of my head
Lead me on. Get out
Lead me on. Get out of my head

And you say
"I wanna fall in love and I wanna fall in love with you
You're everything I've wanted"

But I'll never fall in love even if I have to die alone
I'll never fall in love and I'll never fall in love with you
Now you're the one unwanted

Can we start from the beginning?
Can we start from the start?
But I can't forget the double-meaning
How you shattered my heart