"Pretending" lyrics

I saw the face in the window
Lighting up a cigarette
Smokey brown eyeshadow
I learnt it from a woman on the internet

Oh, how the hell have you been, babe?
Put your coat on the bed
Let me get you a cup
Sip it up up, right to your head

All the people over there
They don't seem to have a care
I'm so fucking self aware, it's exhausting
And no matter how I try
I repeat it every night, every night, every night, every night

I'm done pretending, pretending
Done pretending

All of my heroes are way more sad than me

Am I the only one pretending, pretending
One pretending?
Oh, who are you so afraid to be? To be? To be? To be? To be?

I lied about liking your dress
I lied about sticking around
I lied about knowing the band that you talked and talked all night about

So take it up with the jury
'Cause I don't really care anymore
And if you listen real close you might just hear the penny drop on the floor

All the people over there
They don't seem to have a care
I'm so fucking self aware, it's exhausting
And no matter how I try
I repeat it every night, every night, every night, every night

I'm done pretending, pretending
Done pretending

All of my heroes are way more sad than me

Am I the only one pretending, pretending
One pretending?
Oh, who are you so afraid to be? To be? To be? To be? To be?

Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending?
Leave me alone (Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending?)
I wanna go home (Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending?)
Leave me alone (Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending?)
I wanna go home (Am I the only one pretending, pretending, one pretending, pretending?)