"fadin" lyrics

Buy a new apartment a couple roads from my last
Hope it separates me from my future and my past
The walls look kind of shabby, but location is ideal
At least that's what they tell me over cocktails and a meal
But I know I'm fading again

Buy the latest telly, and shiny bright new sheets
I'll start drinking juices, eating latest plant-based meals
Maybe the new lifestyle is really what I need
At least that's what I've seen and heard on my big TV
But I know I'm fading again

And it gets worse every other day
Where's the [?], is getting in my way
Does it hurt like any other pain?
Feels unheard, uneasiness remains

I'll chip away my teeth just to get that perfect smile
Spend a couple hours in the morning getting styled
Guess that's just what everybody else is gonna do
If I do it all, and you can say you never knew that
I know I'm fading again

Be a perfect man, or on my death, I'll stand my trial
'Least that's what my priest told me back when I was a child
But all that time thinking, a never ending Sunday church
How could my god sit there and send me down to burn
I know I'm fading again

And it gets worse every other day
Where's the [?], is getting in my way
Does it hurt like any other pain?
Feels unheard, uneasiness remains