"Carsick." lyrics

(I am not what you put me through)
(I am not what you put me through)

There's a part of my mind that still misses that guy
That I met that Friday night off Western
But the other like, seventy-nine percent of the time
Wanna see you dead somewhere

And I know that's kind of fucked up
Yeah, we were kind of fucked up, weren't we, dear?
Weren't we, dear?

There's a part of my head that still misses my friend
And the nights we spent drivin' down the highway
Think you meant every word you said playin' Radiohead
Like that's gonna be you someday

And I kinda wish I turned it down
I still hear your voice yellin' way too loud
I could spend my life tryna make you proud
I don't wanna make you proud

'Cause I never liked the altitude
Your high horse at the top of the roof
You cry so hard, you're making me bruise
I'm inside out, I'm black and blue
Those ups and downs kept makin' me puke
I got too carsick tryna love you
I am not what you put me through
I am not what you put me through, yeah

For a second, I swear, I'd never been so scared
I was sleepin' upstairs on your blow-up mattress
Said a prayer as I cut off my hair
Guess I wasn't aware I'd be more attractive

Yeah, you really went and made me hate myself
Took a couple years to finally save myself
I don't wanna hear you say you're sorry now
Save that shit for someone else

'Cause I never liked the altitude
Your high horse at the top of the roof
You cry so hard, you're making me bruise
I'm inside out, I'm black and blue
Those ups and downs kept makin' me puke
I got too carsick tryna love you
I am not what you put me through
I am not what you put me through, yeah

(I am not what you put me through)
(I am not what you put me through)
(I am not what you put me through)
(I am not what you put me through)
(I am not what you tried to do)
(I am not what you made me lose)
(I am not what you put me through)
(I am not what you put me through)

'Cause I never liked the altitude
Your high horse at the top of the roof
You cry so hard, you're making me bruise
I'm inside out, I'm black and blue
Those ups and downs kept makin' me puke
I got too carsick tryna love you
I am not what you put me through
I am not what you put me through

I never liked the altitude
Wanna scream it from the top of the roof
That I hate your guts and you hate me too
And deep inside, think I always knew
Your ups and downs kept makin' me puke
I got too carsick tryna love you
I am not what you put me through
I am not what you put me through, yeah