"In Moment" lyrics

I've dealt with nightmares, that I thought weren't even real
And had to push right through the emptiness just to allow myself to heal
This has elevated to beyond everything I thought I knew
And now history repeats itself, I just don't know if I can see this through

Hold fast, repair the sails, ready the mast
Hold fast, this is your captain, we're going down

Take a seat and watch my world come crashing down
They'll be searching for survivors, where none can be found
And I can't believe, can't believe what my eyes can see unfolding in front of me
If I can't escape from this moment, then I will live in my memories

It's becoming apparent, that I'm well out my depth
'Cause with every experience we are built to grow
But now we're oceans apart and fear is all I know

How do we cross this expanse...
When we are miles from safe ground
And as the earth shakes you'll find
No salvation, pick it up

Fresh wounds formed from history and the courage that I lacked
Now this is dragging me under
And I've got nowhere to run
It's all catching up with me
Just look at what I've become

I know I've never really tried to come to terms with loss
But to bury those feelings deep down inside will always come at a cost
My minds a battlefield that I'm destined to roam
But every time that I take a single step there's yet another fork in the road

I think I'm lost and I don't wanna be found
Now my heart is in a casket, and I'm cemetery bound

I never thought I'd seize the day that I'd embrace this misery
But I will see this through until end In Moment
In Memory