"Feel This Pain" lyrics

Oh, I'm trying to tell me to
I go down these roads I won't tell you where I'm going no no no
Oh I'm trying to tell me to
I go down these roads I won't tell you where I'm going, no no no
Oh

I let 'em see what's on the surface but nothing more
Cuz I ain't trying to pick my heart up off the fucking floor
I'm sitting lonely my people know me but do they care
Without this music I swear to God I'd be fucking dead
Oh now you pay attention, oh now you're so concerned
Oh now you want to say condolences well save your words
Because I'll be fine with my rhymes and insecurities
I've always been a fuck up I've always missed opportunities
I guess I'm used it losing I'm so accustomed to
I open up to perfect strangers more than I do you
You say you love me you claim it but I don't think you do
Because if you love someone you wouldn't do this shit you do
I'm feeling pain it's so cold in my vein
And I pray to God I make it out without going insane
If you look in my eyes you'll see to the skies
I'm trying to hide away my feelings before I find my demise
C'mon

Oh, I'm trying to tell me to
I go down these roads I won't tell you where I'm going no no no
Oh I'm trying to tell me to
I go down these roads I won't tell you where I'm going, no no no
Oh

I sit alone in my room with a fucking pen and a pad
Trying to figure out if I'm more like my mom or dad
And I guess I'm neither of them because either way I'm a fucking mess
And made it look so easy but never prepared me for the stress
And as I buckle my boots I'm overcome with shame
For all the bullshit that I did that hurt my father's name
If I could take it back I would but I could never change
Either way I'm stuck with it and I'm the one to blame, fuck
I open up and in that moment man I'm all alone
Trying to find my purpose in verses to maybe bring me home
I'm fully vested in my hunger and pain
That I don't know no fucking different to take it away, ahh
I'm supposed to set an example that there's a better way
But how the fuck am I supposed to do that with no greater shame
It ain't a game but either way we play to say
We change the way we deal with pain and hate
The way they say we change

Oh, I'm trying to tell me to
I go down these roads I won't tell you where I'm going no no no
Oh I'm trying to tell me to
I go down these roads I won't tell you where I'm going, no no no
Oh

Oh I'm trying to tell me to
I go down these roads I won't tell you where I'm going, no no no
Oh I'm trying to tell me to
I go down these roads I won't tell you where I'm going, no no no
Oh