"Colorblind" lyrics

This is every night
Voices in my head turn colorblind
Meet me at the altar
I'm marrying a monster
I think that I'm a monster

Told you that I'll be waiting
Fell and I hit the pavement
My heads numb from the times I've hated
Who I am
Who I am
I tried to sit and change me
Lately our conversations been blue
I know that you're sick of waiting like I am
I am

And when I say you're waiting I mean for me
I'm not trying to lead you on so let me know and you can just ignore me
I mix the bottle with my pills
I'm drinking way to much got double vision thinking I been seeing four of me
What a shame I'm out of options
Should I call my ex
No probably not because I blocked it (don't)
Can't get this out my head I been thinking too much the reason that I'm stressed

Stay awake I'm sorry
I miss you on my body
I want you
Not anybody
I'll treat you like a Ferrari

Told you that I'll be waiting
Fell and I hit the pavement
My heads numb from the times I've hated
Who I am
Who I am
I tried to sit and change me
Lately our conversations been blue
I know that you're sick of waiting like I am
I am

Stay awake I'm sorry
I miss you on my body
I want you
Not anybody
I'll treat you like a Ferrari

Told you that I'll be waiting
Fell and I hit the pavement
My heads numb from the times I've hated
Who I am
Who I am
I tried to sit and change me
Lately our conversations been blue
I know that you're sick of waiting like I am
I am