"911" lyrics

Parker Jack
1 month behind on my rent
2 weeks since I've been sober
3 days left till my check
4 minutes till my life's over
Only 5 people I can call
And 6 left me on read
If 7 people gon' leave
Gimme 8 shots to my chest
Call 911 'cause I am

Operator
911, what's your emergency?

Hey, thanks... can we talk?
I don't know what to do 'cause I'm nauseous
Okay sir, tell me where you are
I don't know and I can't stop this
Fill my body up with these toxins
How do I get this out of my chest?
Okay sir, I need you to breathe
Where's my shoes... my chest...
I wanna run to you, but I can't
Where's my keys?
Fu— my head
No momma, I'm sorry, this wasn't the plan
I don't wanna leave but I feel like I am
Okay sir, I pinged your location. Don't you worry. Help's on the way
I don't think that I'm gonna make it
Tell my mom to visit my grave, 'cause I'm—

1 month behind on my rent
2 weeks since I've been sober
3 days left till my check
4 minutes till my life's over
Only 5 people I can call
And 6 left me on read
If 7 people gon' leave
Gimme 8 shots to my chest
Call 911 'cause I am

911, what's your emergency?

I just took too many pills
I needed something to feel
You know how it gets
I can't feel reality
Everyone mad at me
Tell me that this isn't real
I hate I'm not enough in my heart
Now I got cold blood in these arms
I'm sorry, mama, for all the drama
I know that you're proud of me and my scars
Sir, sir, please hold on. Please listen to my voice
If I follow through with this suicide
Know I didn't make this choice
Wait— I hear the ambulance
I don't know if I'm gonna make it
There's something inside of me
Maybe it's Satan
I needed God to save me
I won't debate it
I got my reasons
I'm tired of saying I'm—

1 month behind on my rent
2 weeks since I've been sober
3 days left till my check
4 minutes till my life's over
Only 5 people I can call
And 6 left me on read
If 7 people gon' leave
Gimme 8 shots to my chest
Call 911 'cause I am

911, what's your emergency?

Lay on the floor
I cannot see, don't know where I been
I just pray on my knees
Hoping I make it no matter the cost
I got some family, they counting on me
Hiding the sheets 'cause I'm feeling anxious
Save me from all the time I was lost
Can't wait for the day that I tell them I made it
But I keep on reaching and missing the stars
I cannot lie, I've been stressed
Struggle with all this weight I gotta press
The pressure is on, I've been feeling depressed
I hate the fact that I've been feeling dead
Call my friends, I've been trying my best
Don't know how many nights that I got left
Even if I go, would you see my texts?
I've been calling out but you ain't hear me yet

1 month behind on my rent
2 weeks since I've been sober
3 days left till my check
4 minutes till my life's over
Only 5 people I can call
And 6 left me on read
If 7 people gon' leave
Gimme 8 shots to my chest
Call 911 'cause I am

911, what's your emergency?

Lonely
Some time back when I was only
Hungrier than I ever was
Back before money held me up
Counting, counting like it's not enough
Back before I even had a buzz
Fuck them girls, man, it's only us
(Fuck them girls, man, it's only us)
Up in my head
Should've been more cautious
Should've known you're toxic
Should've known I lost when
Everything I love got tossed in
Even when you're good, you're getting penalized
But the pain's the thing that keeps the pen alive
But I keep it moving when I'm dead inside
How the fuck you love me
When I'm set aside?

1 month behind on my rent
2 weeks since I've been sober
3 days left till my check
4 minutes till my life's over
Only 5 people I can call
And 6 left me on read
If 7 people gon' leave
Gimme 8 shots to my chest
Call 911 'cause I am

Dead