"Sick Of Trying" lyrics

They said that time supposed to heal you
But I still feel the same
Ain't no remorse 'cause I got brothers laying down in that grave
Even if I blow or not I swear I'll still be the same
I tried many times before but I can't seem to change
All my life I had to struggle
It's been nothing but pain
Out in public keep it cool with a smile on my face
But when alone I swear I'm hurting, praying for it to change
I just gotta keep it pushing, there's gonna be better days
Sometimes I like giving up and taking my life away
They like "Peysoh what was wrong"?
It's too hard to explain
Fighting demons every night feels like I'm going insane
I swear my story way different you fasho can't relate
This lifestyle ain't for the weak you could die any day
Any moment is the end
It just takes one mistake
The way off for all my brothers is something I'ma make
Just keep it pushing have hope that something I'ma create
If I ever leave this world they gon remember my name
They like Peysoh from the 6
That lil nigga the great
Turned nothing into something and he made an escape
I look my mama in the eyes I told her we gon be straight
I go harder and harder
For times I wasn't okay
But I'm alive and doing better guess I can not complain
A wise man once told me there's no shine without rain
Free all my brothers doing life all that time went to waste
This shit street don't bring nothing
But another new case
You gon end up in a cell this ain't the route you should take
You gon shed a couple tears that's a really dark place
But I thank it 'cause it made me that's something I embrace
Free Poloh, free AB
And my big brother Suede
Once they let me through that door I'm gon show no restraint
Put my foot up on they neck all gas no brakes
Big house, nice car and a big ass chain
I remember all them days I was dealing cocaine
If you chose to live this life
Boy you better not break
Meanwhile you was sleeping
I was up wide awake
Tryna figure out a plan on somehow to get cake
Hard to trust nowadays all these nigga be fake
Quick to speak behind my back but smile up in my face
That's why I keep my grass cut so I can see all snakes
Offer them a lil money watch how quick they betray
Everybody wanna switch it's all a part of the game
I used to starve now I'm blowing up like propane
Used to take chances nigga just to get me a plate
Hadda cut a couple times we wasn't on the same page
I want the riches
You want bitches
We on 2 different lanes
Real factor in these streets boy I been left a stain
Quick to lay a nigga down if you fuck with the grain
I just want money swear to God you can keep all the fame
Still that same young nigga
That was out snatching chains
Real trust issues inching just to blow off a brain
Started going up nigga
Now they all acting strange
Like they was with me from that start, from that first first day
When I was down swear to God
I ain't see they face
They ain't put me in positions that was getting me paid
But expect me to break bread when I find me a way
Hell nah bro you're tripping all you niggas ate
I ain't even get a crumb
And I still didn't hate
Sat back watch them eat had to patiently wait
Now it's my turn to ball I won't give 'em a plate
So when I make it and I'm eating stay your bitch ass away