"grave" lyrics

Only talk to God when I'm talking his name in vain (Oh, oh)
I just do your job, make it stop and come take me away (Oh, oh)
'Cause my life has been so hard since the day that you went away
You said you want me to change
But, what's the point when you ain't gonna stay?

You tell me I wasted love, you throwing it right in my face
The decisions I made, I know are wrong and I'm 'bout to break
And I made mistakes that I can't change and there ain't no running away (Oh, oh)
But it's me that I hate, put myself through hell when I decide to drink

Looking for help, but I am lost
Finding myself, but what's the cost? (what's the cost?)
Dead and I'm gone, all alone, not to see (not to see)
I'm as close to home as I think I'll ever be
'Til I'm dead in a grave

Only talk to God when I have no one left to blame (Oh, oh)
Like, why would would sit back and just watch me suffer in pain? (suffer in pain? Suffer in... Oh, oh)
And, maybe I don't deserve to be pulled out of this place
So, just tell me I'm wrong
Tell me I'm someone that's worth being saved

Where are you now that I need you? I don't believe you
When you say that we're all the same
I know that I'm not your favorite, but I cannot take all the things I have battled my pain
So, I fall to my knees (fall to my knees)
I know I've said some things I don't mean
'Cause I've been

Looking for help, but I am lost
Finding myself, but what's the cost? (what's the cost?)
Dead and I'm gone, all alone, not to see (not to see)
I'm as close to home as I think I'll ever be
'Til I'm dead in a grave