"Dissipate" lyrics

I never asked for this burden
I never asked for this cross that I bear on my back
But like an ulcer scratching against my tongue
I can't leave it alone
So you can find me down at the bottom
With a stomach full of stones

I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow
I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo
But I won't die pretending
I'm not intending
To see this through
Until I too become invisible to you

So pull me under, be sure to leave no trace
Never wonder, I see it on your face
What do I have to do to demonstrate (Have to do to demonstrate)
The way it makes me feel and think?
I feel like I could fucking suffocate (I could suffocate)
And you would barely blink
I could suffocate and you would barely blink (Blink)

So I'll sink, searching for an answer
With a stomach full of stones
These thoughts are like a cancer
Growing in my bones

I've made this hell my home
Never again, sever the sin from within my soul (Soul)
The darker half that makes me whole

I was only dreaming
I was never here
I was only dreaming
Of how I'll disappear

I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow
I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo
But I won't die pretending
I'm not intending
To see this through
Until I too become invisible to you (I was only dreaming)
Invisible to you (I was never here)
But I won't die pretending
I'm not intending
To see this through
Until I too become invisible to you
(Become invisible to you)

I long to leave
Leave the past behind
And tear out the thorn that's in my side

Tear out
Tear out the thorn
Tear out
Tear out the thorn that's in my side