"Further" lyrics

Do you remember the things I used to tell you
About all the things I wanted to feel
But thought I wasn't allowed to
How I was happy in my dream last night and
Didn't feel guilty when I reached for your hand
I wanna see it in my sleep again
Wanna be told it's not a deadly sin

Do you remember the night she tried to change you?
On the foot of my hotel bed
I watched the color leave your face
It's burned in my brain
But I got a good laugh out of my friends today and
I didn't need a pill to make me okay
I wanna see it when it really sets in
Wanna be laughing when it breaks your skin

Do you feel guilty?
Do you feel anything at all?
Does it feel weird?
To have yourself up against a wall

Like stealing candy from a baby
Not what it took for you to hate me
And I might listen through the wall
But I won't tell anything at all
At all