"negative spaces" lyrics

At the world, I'm amazed
But you'll never tell by my face
The sentiment is overblown
All the lies are stuck in my throat

I fill my skull with nonsense
Live an implicated consequence
And it's all so negative
I'll pretend that it's not happening

What I love, they're always tryin' to take
And my fury's keeping me awake
I'm immune to the heartache
I've been living with the dull pain

Am I addicted to despair?
And wasting time I'll never get back?
If there's a Hell, I'll meet you there
I'm in the waiting room

I fill my skull with nonsense
Live an implicated consequence
And it's all so negative
I'll pretend that it's not happening

I like what I represent
My anger comes at my expense
There's always something to be up against
I'll pretend that it's not happening

To me
To us
To everyone
The world
The gods
The dogs
I'm not impressed
But I attest
I say
With my whole chest
Every moment's vital
And I'm feeling suicidal
But I smile

I fill my skull with nonsense
Live an implicated consequence
And it's all so negative
I'll pretend that it's not happening

I like what I represent
My anger comes at my expense
There's always something to be up against
I'll pretend that I'm not scared
I'll tell myself that it's not happening