"The Pressure" lyrics

I wonder what will be there when I make it to the top
Will I finally reach my peak and then the milestones will stop?
Can I look back say I made it? I am doubting on the odds
Got my head up on a swivel, know they praying that I flop

Promise I will rise above
Nothing getting in my way
Either with me or you're not
Got no time for playing games
Be the first to break the curse
Inside my family tree of names
You will get what you deserve
That's a testament of faith

Ima go beast mode, they know
With my cerebral in flow
I'm a little impatient, ego
The size of the Rungrado
It gets intense when I spit that shit
That comes from the heart but I do not miss
I've been on the fence with the world I'm in
Where did we go wrong? No common sense

Everybody oversensitive, don't wanna hear the truth
Flush your morals down the toilet, this new generation's doomed
Got the mindset of a winner when I walk inside a room
But I'm learning from the best, I'll continue to improve

Fighting demons everyday
Hell is like my second home
Got a phone but no one calls
Yet they watching like a drone
Been defective since my birth
I got a missing chromosome
Why they call me Problematic?
Causing havoc on my own

Let's take a trip inside my mind
It's dark middle November
The lights are dim, the mic is on
I'll rep my shit forever
Remember when was at my lowest
Wanted to surrender
Was ready just to blow my fucking brains
But I could never

I'm breaking out this cage, I will explore my full potential
I never went to college but got certified credentials
My accolades, they come from all the fans, I'm sentimental
They sleeping on me like a Xanax isn't accidental
'Cause people do not listen to it if it isn't trending
I feel like I'm a dark horse with the craft that I'm perfecting
Should probably take a minute just to stop and count my blessings
But I'm busy with my legacy continue helping millions
The way I body beats you can call me your mortician
You got a brain so use it life is all about decisions
The truth be told low and behold, the proof is in the pudding
I paid my dues improved the flow, a man up on a mission

I use to drive a cobalt
We would decipher the gas
Now formulating a cult
Like I'm Satanic in fact
I'm Usain Bolt when I hop on tracks
I'm passing y'all and I won't look back
I used to dream of this life that I have
Now I got em all mad cuz I spit these facts

Soon I'm gonna be a dad, I won't be a disappointment
Like my father when he left while collecting unemployment
Lotta days when conflict hit, yeah I'd rather be avoiding
But it's just a bandage fix, in the end it will destroy you

I'm sorry I can't be the person everybody wanted
It will kill me if I stay a people pleaser, so exhausting
They poked the bear so please beware, y'all leaving me no option
Let's clear the air, I will not take no regrets to my coffin
The pressure as an artist, it has crumbled me to pieces
Every day that I'm awake another battle with my demons
Will they give me flowers when I'm buried in my grave
I'm just hoping when I'm gone that they won't forget my name
Lord, forgive me...