"Depression (Self Doubt)" lyrics

Here I go again in my deep thoughts
Wishing I could push a button for a restart
See my depression ain't something easily fought
Can you explain to me the reason why I get crossed?
Why the ones that I trust got me pissed off?
Reminiscing 'bout the friends that done switched up
Lately I've been feeling like I wanna give up
Tryna pull myself together but I've been stuck
Man, this shit's fucked
Life just feels so goddamn stagnant
Each step I take I'm just going backwards
Heart used to be full of hope and passion
But now when I drop I get no reaction
Maybe I'm just doubtful and overthinking
But how can I be proud with no one to listen?
Used to be on top, I was steady killing
Now I wanna jump off of the nearest building
So please tell me what the fuck did I do wrong
Used to be someone but that's all long gone
I put my heart in these songs
Write away the pain 'til it fades, only way I can keep calm
High strung, I'm so anxious, I hate how it feels
To fix all the damage by popping some pills
When I think 'bout my past it just give me the chills
Well I wanna give up but I can never yield