"hopeful romantic..." lyrics

I just want love, I hope you understand it
Yes, I got trust issues, I done been damaged
Fuck it, I guess, I'm a hopeless romantic
Hopeless romantic, like, damn
I'm a lover girl but I ain't delusional
Heart on my sleeve but I wear it beautiful
I be trippin', fallin' hard
I be choosin' like it's hella card
Never lookin' for it, bet it finds me
Need that [?], turn me like the nineties
Like to go to sleep with one beside me
Always have a main course, never has a side piece

Ask myself do I like pain 'cause my heart keeps on breakin' again
No matter winter, summer, spring, September I'll be fallin' again, just

Call me a hopeful romantic
Grateful for all of the damage
Foolish to put myself through it
You was hurt as my own [?] advantage
My bad, it's my bad, it's my bad
Knowin' that I can't manage
I'm just a hopeful romantic

Number one, baby girl, I need a number one
We ain't breakin' up ever, we never done
Vibe with you, vibe with you, baby, spend time with you
Why would I lie to you, baby? I'ma ride for you
Hate that I need you, [?] need 'em (Oh)
Boy, I be feelin' you runnin' that game, still I believe 'em (Oh-oh)
Told me to join 'em (Join 'em) if I can't beat 'em (Beat 'em)
Easy to get 'em, harder to keep 'em
I done been gone out of my mind (My mind)
Name it, I may just decide (Yeah)
Mentally drained but I'm fine
Am I addicted to cryin'?

Ask myself do I like pain 'cause my heart keeps on breakin' again
No matter winter, summer, spring, September I'll be fallin' again, just

Call me a hopeful romantic
Grateful for all of the damage
Foolish to put myself through it
You was hurt as my own [?] advantage
My bad, it's my bad, it's my bad
Knowin' that I can't manage
I'm just a hopeful romantic

Baby, [?]
I got racks to fill a bag
I'm just a hopeful romantic
Come to me, run to me, come to me when you wanna relax
I'ma put you on your back, uh-huh, straight facts