"If I'll Ever Win" lyrics

Avoiding all the mirrors
'Til she wakes up a little thinner
Replaying conversations in her head that speak too loud

And she talks a little quiet
Thinks it's better to be silent
She learned to bite her tongue because it hurts too much to let it out

She fights a war against herself
Against herself
No one ever comes to help

And I don't know, don't know where to hide
From someone I don't recognize
She hates my body
The body that she's trapped inside
She keeps me up at night

And I don't know if it ever ends
It slows down then it starts again
She's hates my body
The body that we're living in
I don't know if I'll ever win

I think I've become my bully
Convinced myself nobody wants me
I'm nothing but a burden who's still learning how to cope with life

But that girl in my mind
Tells me I'm nothing
Go down another size
That I'm not worth loving
So don't even try
'Cause I could never do it right

And I don't know, don't know where to hide
From someone I don't recognize
She hates my body
The body that she's trapped inside
She keeps me up at night

And I don't know if it ever ends
It slows down then it starts again
She's hates my body
The body that we're living in
I don't know if I'll ever win

'Cause the more I try, the more it hurts
And giving up just made it worse

And I don't know, don't know where to hide
From someone I don't recognize
She hates my body
The body that she's trapped inside
She keeps me up at night

And I don't know if it ever ends
It slows down then it starts again
She's hates my body
The body that we're living in
I don't know if I'll ever win