"Mercy" lyrics

There's dirt in my nails
From scraping the walls
I thought I hit bottom
So why am I still falling
I know who I am
I didn't forget
But I just need belief
That I won't give up yet

But God this is all feeling so hard
Why am I lost, out in the dark
Why am I struggling, just to keep standing
Tears won't stop coming and I don't understand it
Maybe it's true, that I'm getting stronger
But this really hurts me, I'm crying mercy
I'm crying mercy

I'm too hard on myself
I never let myself fail
But then my body screams help
And my mind wants to bail
I just want to be real
Stop pretending I'm good
And feel what I feel
Not what I think I should

But oh god, this is all feeling so hard
Why am I lost, out in the dark
Why did you leave me all alone
Facing the worst pain that I've known
Maybe it's true, that I'm getting stronger
But this really hurts me, I'm crying mercy
I'm crying mercy

Come on love me now
Come on love me now
Come on love me now
Come on help me out
Come on help me out
Come on help me out
Help me out

I'm crying mercy
On my knees mercy
Mercy
Mercy
Mercy

Come on love me now
Come on love me now
Come on love me now
Love me now
I'm crying mercy
On my knees mercy
Mercy