"Deadly Shade Of Blue" lyrics

It's a long walk back, for the weak ass rat
Hated the ride, I want my dollar back
Why do they hate me? What did I do?
I want so bad to be loved like you

And every night's become a fight
So what am I to do?
I try to put a good face on
I'm a deadly shade of blue
There's nowhere left to turn, no
There's not a light in sight
I wish that I could turn 'em on
But I don't know
Where I lost my light
Where I lost my light

I just want to feel okay
Can't get there myself, I'll find another way
Float like a feather, fly like a bird
I just don't want it to hurt

'Cause every night's become a fight
So what am I to do?
I try to put a good face on
I'm a deadly shade of blue
There's nowhere left to turn, no
There's not a light in sight
I wish that I could turn 'em on
But I don't know
Where I lost my light
Where I lost my light
Where I lost my light
Where I lost my light

I got worse than I deserved
(I wish I would have lost the nerve)
I wish I would have turned
(Before I hit the verge)

But every night had become a fight
So what was I to do?
Tried to put a good face on
Was a deadly shade of blue
Nowhere left to turn, no
Not a light in sight
I wish I could have turned 'em on
But I don't know
Where I lost my light
Where I lost my light
Where I lost my light
Where I lost my light