"Wake Up" lyrics

I ask myself, will I ever change?
A broken record can't turn the page
Take a long hard look in the bathroom mirror
Head in my hands, how'd I end up here?
But the days go on, people in their lanes
Can't rid the doubts or ditch the shame
Little laughs and coping lies, I tell myself it's a disguise

When I wake up, when I wake up
It's written on my face
When I wake up, when I wake up
Say today's the day that I'm gonna change
I'm gonna fucking change, find a way
Fight the urge, leave yesterday
I'm gonna fucking change

A weakened state, those stupid nights
The worst decisions of my life
And I wish I could take it all back
But we know life doesn't work like that
So my guard is up, can I let it down?
I don't know love, lost never found
Start to wonder what's wrong with me
'Cause everyone else has found their feet
I was living hard and running out of time
Bet the fort, took a risk, confide
I don't know, I don't know anymore, no
I don't know, I don't know anymore

When I wake up, when I wake up
It's written on my face
When I wake up, when I wake up
Say today's the day that I'm gonna change

She said you're fucked up
She said you're so fucked up
She said you're fucked up
She said you're so fucked up
Said I'm gonna change, find a way
Fight the urge, leave yesterday
Said I'm gonna change, find a way
Fight the urge, fuck yesterday