"Spread Me All Over Illinois" lyrics

Change holds me down to the places I don't want to be
When I wake up I look in the mirror and I see
The person that's been scaring me away from moving on
And getting out of my head
I end my nights in the same spot that I told myself I would leave

I want to come home and have it be like it was before I left
I'm starting to see that I keep living alone in the past
Since loneliness will never leave my mind

I can't shake it off
Always a fight between my past,
My head, and my heart, you can cut me up
And spread me all over Illinois

I can't, I can't find myself
Since loneliness will never leave my mind
I'm stuck and I feel like I'm the only one
I end my nights in the same spot that I told myself I would leave

I want to come home and have it be like it was before I left
I'm starting to see that I keep living alone in the past
Since loneliness will never leave my mind

Did I get left behind?
Or is everybody else just hiding that they're lost

Loneliness will never leave my mind
Loneliness will never leave my mind

Did I get left behind?
Or is everybody else just hiding that they're lost