"This Year Is Out To Get Me" lyrics

I swear this year is out to get me
I won't make it out without stomach knots
Black eyes, and bone-deep cuts

Why do we love if it just ends in loss?
How do you cope when all your hope is gone?
It's a slow and lonely climb
Through the seasons losing light
I've been caught in a free fall
Down this steep mental decline

Now the months drag on
Like death from a broken heart
That time couldn't heal

I swear this year is out to get me
The rope tightens around my throat
It won't let me go
I swear this year is out to get me
I won't make it out without stomach knots
Black eyes, and bone-deep cuts

January buried me in six feet of snow
With frozen time and frostbite breaking off my brittle hope
A sunless summer killed me even worse than I remember
But I'll never have a darker day than the 14th of December

I swear this year is out to get me
The rope tightens around my throat
It won't let me go
I swear this year is out to get me
I won't make it out without stomach knots
Black eyes, and bone-deep cuts

There's an ocean between true happiness and me
But I'm choking on the salt
As my melodramatic mind tells me
That I've forgotten how to swim

The medicine, so bittersweet
Can't take the edge off that I need
The medicine, so bittersweet
Can't take the edge off that I need

I swear this year's out to get me