"L'esprit De L'escalier" lyrics

Broken inside, you lie with your arms out wide
Play this back: you said
"Darling, I feel my bones as they wither away
We clash like waves..."
Between these high and low tides I reside
We're dancing under moonlight
Beneath your mind

Should I stay or should I flee to unsure infinity
Which gates will open wide for me?
To stay within this vessel, this vile body
Oscillating. It's hollow organization...

The battle wages on
My lungs they turn to bombs dropped on my heart
Shattering everything
Veins of gasoline, soldier set me free
There is a war, There is a war inside of me!

Where have you been? I was ignored
You washed up on my shores
My mind has been opened, words have been spoken
There is a war no one can see
In every myth there was a truth twisted by our youth
They've been blurred over time
Heroes were victims too, forgotten bones imbue

I heard him say, "For you it's much too late"
I'm at heaven's door
Without a doubt it was built so you could keep me out
I'm no saint, I've done you wrong
That doesn't mean that I don't belong...

Do I belong?