"Suffering" lyrics

I take too much of everything
Straight in to my blood and it's never enough
So far ahead of myself
Wrapped up in the sheets I'm alone without us
We could have been soft
We could have just laughed and talked about the boring stuff
Instead of being so hard
And now I've lost everything I've ever had

I don't want you to be suffering
I don't want you to be suffering
How could I ever hurt you
How could I ever hate you
Sometimes I wish I was someone else
Somebody helping you love your self
How could I ever change you
How could I ever fail you

I shut down communication lines
I closed all of the windows
I stay awake at night
Left all your coins by the bedside light
To remind me of us spending all our time

Do you think of me at all
Those mornings we'd laugh until we cried a thousand times
Is it too late to call
Are we about to lose everything we ever had

I don't want you to be suffering
I don't want you to be suffering
How could I ever hurt you
How could I ever hate you
Sometimes I wish I was someone else
Somebody helping you love your self
How could I ever change you
How could I ever fail you

All this trouble inside of us
Tried to break us and keep us up in the night, in the night
All this trouble inside of us
Is it too late to call you up in the night, in the night

I don't want you to be suffering
I don't want you to be suffering
How could I ever hurt you
How could I ever hate you
Sometimes I wish I was someone else
Somebody helping you love yourself
How could I ever change you
How could I ever fail you

I don't want you to be suffering