"Sick Of Suffering" lyrics

I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong (wrong)
I wish that you could save me but I may be far too gone
Put me out my misery (I REALLY DID IT THIS TIME!)
(I FUCKED MY LIFE UP SO MUCH I LOST EVERYTHING)
(GOD, WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE?)
(DO YOU LIKE TO SEE MY SUFFER?)
(ARE YOU ENTERTAINED?)
Please forgive me, I don't mean it, Lord
But I don't want to cry myself to sleep again
I FEEL LIKE IF I DIE FOR REAL
I'M SCARED I'VE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
BUT THINKING WHAT IS LIFE IF I CAN'T BE [?]
I know that I earned this, but just when I get to learn from what I did?
It's never hurt this much, I deserve it, but when DOES IT END?

I DON'T GOT NO MONEY IN THE BANK!
I DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKIN' TO MY FRIENDS!
WAS AN ALCOHOLIC, IN RECOVERY
I'M TRYIN' TO GET [?] GOD, I'm SO ASHAMED
I'M OUT OF MEDICATION, I'M A WRECK!
BITTER SEPARATION WAS ENFORCED
WANNA TELL MY LADY THAT I LOVE HER
BUT I CAN'T, SHE DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE
SHOUTING S.O.S!

I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong (wrong)
I wish that you could save me but I may be far too gone
Put me out my misery, I'm sick of suffering
Feel like everyone I love has had enough of me
Put me out my misery, sick of suffering
I'm ashamed cuz who I am ain't who I want to be

Someone come for me
Lay me somewhere comfortably to rest
What the fuck you people want?
IF I GET ONE MORE TEXT I SWEAR I'll BREAK MY FUCKIN' PHONE
I'M TOO GROWN FOR SOME OF MY FRIENDS
THEY DON'T KNOW I BEEN ONLINE ALL DAY
TRYING TO CONVINCE MY FANS THAT I LIKE RAP
YOUR FAVORITE RAPPER SUCKS
FUCK WHAT YOUR OPINION IS
I THINK YOU GET IT'S ALL ABOUT MONEY
I DON'T GOT A SHIT TO GIVE
THE INTERNET RUINED MY LIFE
WANNA WRITE SONGS, I TYPE MY THOUGHTS
YOU KNOW HOW MANY NIGHTS I FOUGHT WITH THE WIFE
SHE WISH I NEVER QUIT MY FUCKING JOB

I know that I earned this, but just when I get to learn from what I did?
It's never hurt this much, I deserve it, but when DOES IT END?