"Before" lyrics

I've become resistant to myself
To my weaknesses and pain
I've become the one who wants to live
And just feel alive again

I've changed
Myself
I've changed
I've changed
Myself
I've changed

I've become addicted to being strong
Started out my second life
And the remnants of your tears and smiles
Shift deleted from my mind

Without
Knowing how it hurts
I feel safe
Without
Knowing how it hurts
I feel safe

Is this
What I
Really
Wanted?
Is this
What I
Really
Wanted?

Without...
Without...