"Destroyer" lyrics

You said you needed water
So I built the house on sand
When it sank into the ocean
The blood was on my hands
You left me in a limbo
A "Catch 22"
For saving my own life
Made me the murderer of you

But I know
I can't claim it as just self-defense
Protecting the illusion of my permanent innocence
Because who's guilty is besides the point
It has to be me
I have to be

Your destroyer
I don't wanna but I have to be
Your destroyer
I don't wanna but I have to be
Your destroyer
Oh, I have to be

The villain of the movie
Just a victim of the times
You dress me up and use me
To fit the story you designed
Oh, I yearned for your approval
'Til I didn't recognize me either
Two tickets for a funeral when you
Blow up the hand that feeds ya

Oh, I can't claim it as just self-defense
Protecting the illusion of my permanent innocence
Because who's guilty is besides the point
It has to be me
I have to be

Your destroyer
I don't wanna but I have to be
Your destroyer
I don't wanna but I have to be
Your destroyer
Oh, I have to be
Your destroyer