"WHEN I WOKE UP, YOU WERE GONE" lyrics

Look, I tend to get up in my feelings when my thoughts are illogical
Events that you would tell me, how are demons improbable?
You lie when I talk to you, surprised at the mockery that you made of me
Can't keep facing these obstacles
Man, I'm sick of feeling grief
End my life, I'd do anything for a bit of peace
But when reality's driving you back into the streets
I feel like I should wait for you but would you do the same for me?
This isn't easy, you've been making it even harder
Felt like I died for our future, but now I die regardless
I hate these thoughts in my fucking head while you're out at parties
No one knows the troubles you're facing or even how they started
They only see the surface
And now I'm wondering if writin' this is even worth it
But I know you love me, I feel it
I know you try your best to hide it while you dance on the ceilin'
But when you're coming home alone and realize I am not around
Do you ever wish that you could've done a bit more healin'?
I guess I'll never know
But last night I felt your hand in my palm
And we were talkin' 'bout our past and where it could've went wrong, yeah
Then you told me, "Babe, I can't stay long."
When I woke up you were gone