"i thought that i'd know by now" lyrics

I see girl in the bathroom crying her eyes out
Middle school blows always walking with her head down
She just wants to know the reason why people get so mean
And she's lookin' at me
Mmm

There's superman sitting with a whiskey at the table
Shadows on his face yea he's barely recognizable
He'll always be my hero but I guess he has a dark side
Kinda scaring me, I can't lie
Mmm

Well holy shit I don't have a clue
And I don't like the answer even when I do
I expected to learn something new
That I'd grow out of this

How come I don't feel any different?
Nothing seems real like it did anymore
Don't how to deal with the noise in in my head
And it gets so loud
I thought that I'd know by now
I thought that I would

I've had the same old dream since back when I was wearing dresses
But now I've seen it up close, it's kinda rough around the edges
Maybe I would be happy as a mom or an accountant
But actually I doubt it
Mmm

Cause holy shit what's the fucking point?
The longer this goes I'm getting paranoid

How come I don't feel any different?
Nothing seems real like it did anymore
Don't how to deal with the noise in in my head
And it gets so loud
I thought that I'd know by now

I thought that I'd know
I thought that I'd know by now
I thought that I'd know
I thought that I'd know by now

I thought that I would