"i fall apart" lyrics

I've wasted all this time
Thinking you might still come over
But I'm honestly so tired of this room

Now I lay awake and think of all the things that I can say
But I'm honestly surprised I'm still with you

I fall apart
Whenever I'm not with you

I fall apart
When ever my hearts not in tune

Am I the one you want
Do you see yourself with me
Am I merely just a project
Something you can tweak

Is there anybody out there
That feels the way I do
I get super duper nauseous
So dizzy I could puke

I keep missing all my deadlines
And freaking out my dad
I don't know if I'm okay
But god I hate it when they ask

Cause I'm not good at lying
I really wish I was
To be honest I should never buy a gun

I'd kill myself for fun

I've wasted all this time
Thinking you might still come over
But I'm honestly so tired of this room

Now I lay awake and think of all the things that I can say
But I'm honestly surprised I'm still with you

I fall apart
Whenever I'm not with you

I fall apart
Whenever my hearts not in tune