"Showgirl" lyrics

Crash the bumper car
Cry in the rain
I hate everything
The birds singing the sun the beautiful rain
I hate the blossom snow
I hate time
'Cause it's dragging me through it
One heavy step at a time

It's not me behind that smile
It's who you want to see
But I'm not recognizable
That's someone I've become, I've learned to be

Is it irreversible
Can I find a way back to me
Can I change things
Or is it impossible?
I feel the need to explain
I don't want to be the cliché
But I can't help myself
There's no escaping the truth

It's not me behind that smile
It's who you want to see
But I'm not recognizable
That's someone I've become, I've learned to be

To protect the sinner
To cover up my flaws
To hide from scrutiny
To allow me the space to discover more
To be undercover
To spy on the human race
To diminish my body
To diminish my mind and my face

It's not me behind that smile
It's who you want to see
But I'm not recognizable
That's someone I've become, I've learned to be