"I'm Always On Stage" lyrics

Some time ago, I wandered down a path
That beckoned with a whisper
It crept up and latched upon my back
And now it's with me on the road
Its Machiavellian movements are a test
To witness in the flesh
Makes me smile when I should be crying
And it never lets me rest

If you see me smiling
It's forceful and violent
Oh, it's still there, though, in the silence
'Cause I'm always on stage

There's gak and drink and steroids on the counter
Do you think you're some kind of rock star?
I did all that when I was on the dole
The money didn't stretch as far
But at least then I had my head upon my shoulders
And faced love without fear
But it took that all away
And put my failures on display
And now you're no longer here

If you see me smiling
It's forceful and violent
You had my soul when it was vibrant
Before I lost it on a stage
If you see me smiling
It's forceful and violent
You had my soul when it was vibrant
Before I lost it on a stage
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh