"Wilderness" lyrics

I'll always remember the day we first met
Fires of September still burning their best
The sky full of smoke, full of promise
Of anything possible

It felt like a dream to feel safe in your arms
Despite all the warnings, I fell for your charms
The earth opened up like desire
It was unstoppable

You lay down your history, your battle scars
But all I could see were the stars

So, I don't want to blame you, but my heart is shattered
How could you leave us like none of it mattered?
This kind of love comes but once, maybe twice if you're lucky
Time's running out
So, why won't you talk to me? Tell me your troubles
I'm right here beside you, the calm in your storm
But you kissed me and walked away into your wilderness

You came back, you begged me, I bought what you sold
I gave my forgiveness, I set the bar low
'Cause all along, you had another life somewhere
With somebody other than me

I let myself down in the name of love
Chasing illusions of you

So, I don't want to blame you, but my heart is shattered
I should have known better, I should have run faster
But this kind of love comes but once, maybe twice if you're lucky
Time's running out
So, why won't you talk to me? Tell me your troubles
I'm right here beside you, the calm in your storm
But you kissed me and walked away into your wilderness

We do best we can with the tools that we've got
But a home can't survive a foundation of rot
There's no pretty words to dress up the betrayal
As anything but what it is

So, I guess I can blame you 'cause my heart is shattered
You took what you wanted like none of it mattered
'Cause this kind of love comes but once, maybe twice if you're lucky
Your luck is all run out
So, don't try to tell me you're sorry
I'm so tired of all of your bullshit, your weakness and fear
You can take yourself into your wilderness
And disappear