"Healing" lyrics

They say time heals
But I don't think that's true
It's been 3 years and it still feels new
Blood, sweat, and tears
For the penthouse view
Faced my fears and
I thought it'd look different
I'm moving forward
Just to fall backwards again
Some days it's torture
I don't understand why I

I keep on putting bandaids on a bullet wound
I keep on cutting branches avoiding the root
Smiling through my sorrows thinking it's the cure
And then I end up right back where I was before
I'm done with resisting
I don't need a fixing
I don't need a warm hug fuzzy little feeling
I think I need a healing
Healing, healing

Forgive forget
Wouldn't that be nice
I've tried and tried about a hundred times
They don't make a map
For a whole new life
I went the distance
And I thought it'd look different

What if the grieving
Just means I'll be happy again
I wanna believe it
Wanna understand why I

I keep on putting bandaids on a bullet wound
I keep on cutting branches avoiding the root
Smiling through my sorrows thinking it's the cure
And then I end up right back where I was before
I'm done with resisting
I don't need a fixing
I don't need a warm hug fuzzy little feeling
I think I need a healing
Healing, healing

The numbing
Kills my joy
And it steals my voice
It don't fill that void like I thought it would
'Cause my heart still aches
And my mind's in chains
Now it's time to face what I know I should

I keep on putting bandaids on a bullet wound
I keep on cutting branches avoiding the root
Smiling through my sorrows thinking it's the cure
And then I end up right back where I was before
I'm done with resisting
I don't need a fixing
I don't need a warm hug fuzzy little feeling
I think I need a healing
Healing, healing
I know I need a healing, healing healing