"waste away" lyrics

I wanna waste away 'til I'm nothing but a memory
I wanna lay in place 'til I'm nothing at all
With every emotion I can't feel
So many different ways to stand still
I wanna stay in place
I wanna stay in place
I wanna stay inside

I wanna waste away 'til I'm nothing but a memory
I wanna lay in place 'til I'm nothing at all
With every emotion I can't feel
Don't wanna look at the view from the top of the hill
Don't wanna be alright
Don't wanna be alright
Don't wanna be alright

Then you said
Do you remember?
The last time you felt alright
In hindsight, I'll realize
I've hollowed out my insides

Remind me to remember
That this won't last forever
But can we really count on that?
"Feels like you're holding something back"
I'm always holding something back
Remind me
Remind me
Remind me

Remind me to remember
That this won't last forever
When I'm worn out, quick tempered
There is no reasoning with me
I can't remember
The last time I felt alive
I'm always holding something back