"Watch You Die Again" lyrics

Sit in circles trying to fuck with the dead
It always fucks with me instead
When you were here, we didn't talk
But now suddenly, I've found all the words I should've said
But I'll never be able to tell
We're cursed souls in parallel
Already have what I've been looking for
But I will never give it to myself

Run in circles trying to fix your life
Or find morbid ways to kill the time
You spread your hand and lay it on the ground
And stab the space between your fingers with the top of a knife
No, you can't calm yourself down
When you know there's no way out
You tried to start a new thread
But you pulled it 'til you found the same bitter end

And I saw you dying in my sleep
(And now I'm not waking up)
(I swear I held you close, now it's not enough)
The killer looked a lot like me
(Gouge out both my eyes)
(I swear I just can't bear to) Watch you die again
Again

So are you talking to yourself
Or are you talking to a ghost?
Well, ain't it funny, honey? Doesn't matter who
'Cause in the end, the words haunt you the most
Tried to open yourself up
You felt worse and just gave up
Your body language said it all
"Just get out, just get out, just get out"
(So do you feel better yet?)

And I saw your burial last week
(And now you're not waking up)
(I swear I held you close, now it's not enough)
Been seven days, I still can't eat
(Bones shown through my skin)
(I swear I just can't bear to) Watch you die again
Again
Again, again, again, again, whoa

I saw you dying in my sleep
(And now I'm not waking up)
(I swear I held you close, now it's not enough)
Been seven days, I still can't eat
(Bones shown through my skin)
(I swear I just can't bear to let you in)
To tell you I'm sorry, to feel your last heartbeats
To beg you to haunt me every day
Retinal burn of your body, can't remember you fondly
'Cause I swear I just can't bear to watch you die again
Again