"Forgive Me" lyrics

Can I for once
Just abandon my post
Trying to put out these fires in my heart
Just so I can see your face in the smoke
Can I be done
With these emotional ghosts
Cause I'm uninspired and my heart has
Become the place that I toss the bones
And yeah, it's not fair, I know
But the damage is done and I'm already late for the burial

Will you forgive me if I promise that I'll wait for you at the end?
If there's nothing but nothing in death, we
Can lay in the darkness together at last
Will you forgive me if I promise that I know what heaven is like?
Follow me to the bottom of hell
We can lay in the darkness until it's okay

Can I just try doing this on my own
The easiest way to my heart is the path down the loneliest road
But there's no going back
But there's no going back

Will you forgive me
If I promise that I'll wait for you at the end
If there's nothing but nothing in death
We can lay in the darkness together at last
Will you forgive me
If I promise that I know what heaven is like
Follow me to the bottom of hell
We can lay in the darkness until

Lay here with me
I didn't want to tell you but I'm losing all control
Lay here with me
And I can't take the pain of letting go

Will you forgive me if I promise that
I'll wait for you at the end?