"21 Months" lyrics

I tried to act as if I cared
I tried to act as if I didn't wanna get out
I wasn't careful what I asked for, and I got it
But I hung on for 21 months

21 months
21 months
21 months

49 days sitting, standing
Not sleeping, and going crazy in a corner
49 days, my balls turned to brass
I finally won out
I did 21 months

21 months
21 months
21 months

21 strangest months I've ever lived
Think about all the sick things that I said
What I did, what was done to me
And through it all I grew strong
Made my stand, learned to live
I still live what I learned in 21 months