"The Deep Blue Okay (Alt Version)" lyrics

And another thing left that I need to say
I took a knife in case it was a home game
It was wrong and right
Did you expect I might be
On the way to enlighten yet another boy?
I had a clean-girl brow
It was a little forced to be what I want
While pleasing everyone

And you can sing!
And you can thrive!
But you could never say I didn't try
But it was for who I was and not who I'd become
So, what's left? I hear you cry
It's just another new mountain to climb
But I know that at the top is where the next hill starts

And there is nowhere left for your head to turn
Yeah, there's nowhere left for your head to turn
History repeating, but without the learning
And yet they spend their energy
Coming for anybody who doesn't get it right
Who really gets it right?

And I'm a ghost
It's a machine
And now they're following where I've been
But what you looking for?
I'm just like you but boring

And in the end
I'm coming clean
I've spent my whole life lying
About the things I want
About the things I should have done

I'm inferior, you're the absolute
This has got everything and nothing to do with you
I've a house to buy
I've still got this fucked mind

And as another year turns around the bend
As I nudge out yet another friend
It's still hard out here
But, fuck, I'll just keep going

And I'm alone
At least for now
'Cause I can never dumb myself down
I just know way too much to ever fall in love

But the idea's good
I see where you're all coming from

So, I'll roll on unmerrily
On the way to make another wedding about me
I've got boundaries plenty
But they're just so tiring

So, I pick and choose
What is fine to lose
I don't care about much, but I care about you
You're the only one
Who I'm still writing songs
For

And I'm on edge
I make it work
I know that digging in the dirt
Is how someone like me
Gets there eventually

And, yeah, there's shame
That I'm not okay
But the Deep Blue's there inside of me
And I have my doubts
But know I'll always work it out

You'll always work it out

And another thing left that I need to say
You know what? I might try today
I might fucking try today
Try today
Try today

Another thing left that I need to say
You know what? I might try today
I might fucking try today
Try today
Try today