"Wolves At The Door" lyrics

Last night I found heaven
It was on the tip of my tongue
And it reminded me of
All the times I was young

Of catching rain in my open mouth
I used to smile 'til the day I found out
I have no idea who the hell I've become
It's not who I was, it's not who I loved

I wanna drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Has thousands of needles poking at my skin

I lie in bed to the sound
Of the wolves at my door
They are speaking in tongues
Holding court on my floor

I never thought it would come to this
I'm more yellow than my own piss
They're making rounds just to even the score
"Just open the door." "Just open the door."

I wanna drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Is littered with razor blades
Littered with razor blades
Blades, littered with razor blades

I can't hold on, the path is clear
I can't ignore what's been building for years
There's wolves at the door, I won't hide here in fear
Wolves at the door

I look at myself and the things that I've done
Step away from the mirror and into the sun
I forgive myself for all of my mistakes
When will I learn? When will I, when will I burn?

I wanna drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Is littered with razor blades

I gave up on myself a long time ago
The black clouds they swallowed and spit me out whole
"Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my soul,
At least that means I still have a soul left to lose."