"Real Life" lyrics

This whiskey here ain't strong enough for me
So much pressure that I can barely breathe
My demons branding me like Yellowstone
Mama ain't here no more to pray for me
I'm surrounded by hate, fake, fame, and greed
The dark days always seems to find a way
I've been dealing with pain but keep a smile on my face

When nothing goes right then I take a left
Down this old road lonely with this whiskey breath
I drink all night wake up depressed
Try to be a better father put this bottle to rest
I keep on going cuz that's all I know
Turning off every emotion I'm an airplane mode
I keep my past in the rear view
With my middle finger up screaming "fuck you"

I broke down tore it to pieces
Black clouds raining on me again
I can't get away
Trying to get all this time I lost I can't get back
One foot in the other outside the door
I can't make a mistake
This is real life today
This is real life today

Yeah...
But I feel like I'm living on the edge of the motherfucking truth
That I can't let go down that road that I been so long
Mama know I'm wrong daddy's still gone
No one gives a fuck it's the same old song
I can feel it in my head
I been did wrong
Put away the bottle then I come right home
Saying that I'm done but the sad truth I know I'm not
Take another shot to the dome
I've been through hell and I love it trying to rise above it
Take a look inside the mirror I can't help but be disgusted I'm gone
Shit go wrong I point the fingers at the other side
Can't help but wonder why
I'm afraid I'll run and hide

Funny how I sit there and pretend everything's gonna to be okay
Pray to the lord he gonna lead my way
Done with the drank till I see my grave
But I know that I'm not
Feel it in my soul I'ma rot
See it when I toasting this shot
I'm colder inside, pretending that I'm woke and I'm not
See it when I'm closing my eyes

And I don't understand why you put up with me
Like I rocked the boat so much until it fucking sinks
I broke down till I wanna up and leave
But I end up getting drunk and and the I cause another scene and I'm gone

I broke down tore it to pieces
Black clouds raining on me again
I can't get away
Trying to get it all this time I lost I can't get back
One foot in the other outside the door
I can't make a mistake
This is real life today