"Garden Of Shadows" lyrics

Soul twitching roots twisting
My every thought is sickening
I'm restless, confessions
The thought just leaves me breathless

I can't imagine a day
Without broken promises
I'm so ashamed of the way
I adore my bondages

All it took was a taste
This garden was beautiful
But now it's filled with shadows of gray
There's blood in the rain
The soil is stained I'm wilting
Carve away the secrets in me

It's like I'm sedated
Unholy medication
Lost count of my faces
Only the fire of god could save me
So melt away the masquerade
Expose what's under my skin
And separate the flesh and me
I need to reawaken

All it took was a taste
This garden was beautiful
But now it's filled with shadows of gray
There's blood in the rain
The soil is stained I'm wilting
Carve away the secrets in me

One two three breathe
Inhale exhale
I'm sick not well
Tryna prevail, I fail
Expel this spell
One two three breathe

Secrets I'm holding feel
Like a weight on my shoulder
Intoxicated I'm feeling
But yet I'm sober
They say he paid the price for me
I upped the total
Changed my direction
I'm tryna shift like a motor

I know this ain't who I'm meant to be
But if it's meant to be
Then come and carve
These secrets out of me
Or what's inside of me
Draw it out of me like phlebotomy
It's me versus me like a rivalry
I tell you how I get here in privacy

I need to find myself again
Trapped inside these shadows of gray

All it took was a taste
This garden was beautiful
But now it's filled with shadows of gray
There's blood in the rain
The soil is stained I'm wilting
Carve away the secrets in me

All it took was a taste
This garden was beautiful
But now it's filled with shadows of gray
There's blood in the rain
The soil is stained I'm wilting
Carve away the secrets in me

I need to find myself again
Trapped inside these shadows of gray