"Lying To Make You Love Me" lyrics

I got problems, I got symptoms
Like these walls I'm stuck behind
I got trauma, been the victim
Guilty conscience stains the minds
You make me feel bad for being real
Tell me, why is it so wrong?
You got problems, you got symptoms
And it's me they're landing on

Now I hope you understand what I'm fighting
And I hope you understand I been hiding
If I tell you all my secrets, just don't hold it above me
What you're thinking of me, oh
'Cause I'm lying to make you love me (Yeah, I'm lying to make you)
I'm lying to make you love me
(Yeah, I'm lying to make you, lying to make you)

I start shaking, can't catch my breath
When I think I caused you pain
So it's taken all of my strength just to rewire my brain
You and me don't need a conversation
No, I don't need any validation
No escaping, you're not changing
It's on me to walk away

Now I hope you understand what I'm fighting (Hope you understand)
And I hope you understand I been hiding (I been hiding)
If I tell you all my secrets, just don't hold it above me
What you're thinking of me, oh
'Cause I'm lying to make you love me (Yeah, I'm lying to make you)
I'm lying to make you love me (Yeah, I'm lying to make you)
'Cause I'm lying to make you love me, yeah
(Yeah, I'm lying to make you)
I'm lying to make you love me (I'm lying, I'm lying, I'm lying)
(Yeah, I'm lying to make you)

I'm sick and tired of lying 'bout who I'm meant to be
I'm tried of trying, oh
I'm sick and tired of lying 'bout who I'm meant to be
I'm tried of trying, oh (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Now I hope you understand what I'm fighting
So I hope you understand I been hiding (I been hiding)
If I tell you all my secrets, just don't hold it above me
What you're thinking of me, oh
I'm lying to make you love me